My fault, my failure, is not in the passions I have, but in my lack of control of them. - Jack Kerouac.
When you're trying to live your dreams and keep failing, blame your failure on nothing except this; Your inability to control your passions because passion is the speed but control is the power. You would want to do everything you know and you're told, take all actions, good and bad, to make your dreams your own, but when you ignore to look forward after every failure, search everywhere before you choose somewhere, you would keep going around in a circle and your passion would never lead you anywhere, except to regrets.